Oh my word!

I think in the past month I have gone from 1 to 10 subscribers! This is so amazing and I want to thank each one of you for caring (or just being interested) in what I have to say.

Now, this past week has been what I would like to deem "the fat week". Not that I don't feel like I'm not fat already,but this felt like I was the 163lbs girl with an added 300000 lbs. It seems like no matter how little I ate or how much I worked out, I was getting bigger and bigger. It's a horribly despairing feeling, but I hope that it will wear off. (Oh God I pray I don't stay stuck like this...)

School= same empty void it has always been for me.

Oh. Brain epiphany....
Do all remember like my 2nd most important resolution for 2010. Well I have officially slipped this year now. I purged what I had for dinner cause I just felt like plain shit and I needed to get that food out! However, I will try not to let this fuck up hold me back because I REALLY want to stop bingeing and purging. (just thinking of my next dentist visit (I'm already due :S) freaks me out. What if they look at my teeth and think "What the hell?!? Have you been chewing on battery acid?")

Well, I'll try to update sunday to tell you how much I have lost this week on week 2 of the sparkteens bootcamp.

-TheInvisibleDisorderedOne

p.s. I recommend sparkteens.com (if under 18) or sparkpeople.com (over 18) if you need to track calories burned or eaten. It is wonderful.