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Monday, March 15, 2010

Disappointing

Woot Woot!!!! SPRING BREAK!

How are all of you my darlin's? I haven't heard form some of you so update! I wanna hear about your lives :)

Well, this morning I woke up at the ungodly hour of 6 a.m. to go to the DMV. Stood in line until 8, which is the time that they actually open, but by then the line is HUGE! When I get to the front of the line, I find out I don't have to take a drivers test because I took Drivers ED before the law in Texas was changed.

I'm getting excited. I'm finally going to be able to drive on my own. I LOVE driving! It's very therapeutic for me. I'm not sure why...

Well, then the clerk woman ask, "Are you 18?"
I answer honestly, of course, "No, I'm 17".
Then she says "Well since you are under 18, do you have a VOE (Verification of Enrollment)?"
SHIT!
Being the complete worthless piece of shit dumb ass that I am, I didn't know that I needed one. WHY DO THEY CARE IF I'M IN SCHOOL?!? IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH DRIVING!

She goes, "Oh, well I'll give you a line pass. Do you just go to a school around here?"
Me: "No, I go to a private school" (ACROSS TOWN!!! PLUS IT'S SPRING BREAK SO NO ONE IS THERE TO GIVE ME A VOE!)

When I got home I was so distraught and upset that I got in bed, cut and cried, cried and cut. Then went to bed for another 6ish hours.

I was really just mad at myself for being so stupid. I wish I were dead. I'm so tired of always being disappointed. Anything I want, I never get no matter how fucking hard I work.

*Sigh*
-Vizzy

4 comments:

Perfecting my Emptiness said...

hey vizzy.
I was very worried about you...:(but i hope that you are better:*
i am, i think....never mind me...ANSWER the damn e-mail:D:))please:*
"PerfectingMyEmptiness"

PeriAdot (G+P) said...

How the hell were you supposed to know you needed one, if they hadn't told you before you went?!
*hugs* Stupid bureaucratic bitch. Run her over :p

InvisibleDisorderedOne said...

hehe. Imagining running people over makes me giggle ^_^

My theory is: the DPS is the portal to hell on Earth. It's where satan torments all humans... :P

BlAnCh said...

damn ... oh btw, ur blog looks diferent... i think? does it. i havent got a memeory lol haha
oh you know, i hope youre alright. cutting crying the awesome cycle huh? I'm not proud of my self injury, but in this moment im glad i can understand you. hating yourself sucks. and it doesnt seem to go away. We're just waiting huh... maybe it'll go away when we can fit our fingers around our thighs. fingers crossed right?
-love