This girl. Congrats. Go eat then purge a cookie.
Well like mentioned before, I stayed at Reba's... had to eat chips at her job (shouldn't we be feeding little kids fruts and veggies for snack... NOT chips?) then I ended up being served cooked potatoes and a quesadilla for dinner....
Well when I woke up in the morning, the torture didn't end! Reba was like "there is cereal in the pantry". At first I just ignored her, then her mom was telling me, so I got like 1/2 a cup of generic cheerioes with non fat skim milk. (That was a big freaking deal! I hate eating breakfast because I always end up hungry during the day.)
Once we are leaving Reba tells me "Oh, I don't usually eat breakfast cause I don't get hunrgy until 2nd period (our physics class)"
I was sooooooooooooooooooooooooo *passes out* oooooooooo pissed off! I had to freaking eat!
Then just like I predicted, guess what happened. Go on and guess.
Yup, Vizzy got hungry real quick. I don't just mean little curling of the stomach... no I got fucking RAVENOUS! I was so hungry that I ended up eating the lunch that reba's mom made me.... I NEVER EAT LUNCH AT SCHOOL! Then I get home, eat soup, broccoli, few corn tortilla chips, and then chocolate!
*KABOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!* that's the sound of my scale exploding when i weigh myself.
I feel really disgusting. every time I look down i just see a disgusting gut!
I need to fast, but I need support. I start strong, and when I get home... I end up eating :(
Hmmmm.Here's my plan.
Coffee with splenda and a touch of non fat cream.
Nada (That means nothing for my non-spanish speaking friends)
Perhaps a medium/ large apple
and a protein shake
If I need a snack, it'll be diet coke!
Yeah... this plan seems amazing! Now I just need SERIOUS support. I need someone that is willing to verbally ABUSING me if it is necessary. I wish I had an ana buddy in real life.
Oh well. I have to finish homework and try to fit in a workout tonight.
I hope all you lovelies are succeeding at what ever you are dooing. Trying to recover or fasting, I love you and support you.