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Monday, June 7, 2010

My doctor says I'm fat.

Uh. Ok, well maybe not in those words, but that's how it translated in my fucked up mind.

You all know that because of school I wasn't able to exercise like I did last summer... So I put on ten pounds. Disgusting I KNOW. I FUCKING LIVE WITH IT!
*Deep breath* Ok, well I've shaved off three, but when I went to the doctor he was a fucking prick in saying "Well I've noticed that you've put on 7lbs since your last visit." Then he offered me TIPS. He told me to stop drinking soda because that should save me some calories.

I DON'T EVEN FUCKING REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I DRANK A REAL SODA. He probably doesn't even fucking remember that I'm a vegetarian. (Also he doesn't know about my disorder.) But can you imagine my fucking frustrated yelling going on in my head? I mean REALLY!

I've been depressed, constantly wanting to cut, though I haven't thank God.

*Sigh* That's why I've really been missing, I'm sowwy. I have been keeping up with all of your blogs! Keep me updated!

We have to stick together to keep what sanity we have left.

-Vizzy

3 comments:

Charlie said...

My doctor's an asshole like that too. Except, she's a nice asshole about it, like asking me about my eating habits, and suggesting alternatives, which is sometimes nice but mostly annoying.
Like, I'll do this my own way, thanks.
Keep your sanity. There's a reason you only have one. If you lose it... Shit. I dunno what happens. :]

Peridot (G+P) said...

Your doctor is a grade-a ASS. Next time he pulls that kin of shit, laugh in his face.

I'm so glad you haven't cut! I hope you can keep finding other ways to deal :)

Welcome back Vizzy! <3

Perfecting my Emptiness said...

honey, keep going, don't listen to that prick, annoying motherfucker....gaahhhhh i hate him.
I am so proud of you of the not cutting thing, keep going, i haven't cut in like a month or so, i think...
i wish you the best there is