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Thursday, May 10, 2012

Someone like me?

Good God it's been FOREVER since I've had time to get on here. I'm beyond behind on all the blogs that I haven't had the chance to read (about 4 moths of blog entries that I have not gotten to). I am so sorry! Believe me! I have been wanting to get on here, but school os eating my lunch and kicking my ass.

I've been using parting on the weekend as my new escapist behavior. (That's slightly better than constantly cutting and purging, right? Or am I just making excuses?)

On that note, I'm about 97% positive that roommate has been purging. There are just too many things that I see her do that I have done.
Examples behind my reasoning:
          - taking out the trash often even if it isn't full
          - late night puking [although the first time I heard it I gave her the benefit of the doubt and just thought she was really sick with the flu]
          - spraying air freshener after "taking out trash"
          - just the general noises that go with purging [although i'm a fairly silent purger]

and is it sick that I went out to the trash in the hall to check the bag she tossed and it seemed to have small vomit type chunks. Didn't want to get to into it though. Yuck! (But I mean REALLY? She didn't even tie up the bag. Dumb move.)

I really don't know what to do with this information. I don't want to confront her because I wouldn't want to be confronted myself. I mean, what is there to do? We all know that there is no getting better if we are not ready to get better.

I don't know. All I know is that I'm huge and now I feel the need to compete with her even though she's already smaller than me. (Who the fuck isn't!? I'm a fatty -_- )

Que será, será. (Whatever will be, will be.)


Peridot (G+P) said...

Omg that sucks total BALLS about the roomie. I'm lucky that I've been sheltered from the competitiveness inherent in EDs. I figure that the only person I can compete against in a scientifically fair method is myself. Other people have unfair advantages or disadvantages, so why bring that into the equation?

I hope that the schoolwork calms down soon. I've missed you a lot!

Look after yourself and take care <3

Peridot (G+P) said...

Yeah, the whole thing around people in uniforms automatically being hot never made sense to me. There are so many other connotations FFS! Why not have some random "that person's new BF" suddenly crank on the music and start stripping?

Definitely plainclothes strippers for you too? Or should I have them bursting out of a massive fake present?

Dammit Dralion just got in the way of my keyboard! KITTEH!

Lots of love from Dral and me <3