OMFG! I feel like I have been missing so much about you all. :(
I'm way behind on reading everyone's blogs and haven't even thought of writing here because I've been SO freaking busy.
I'm working here in Acapulco, Mexico teaching math. Being a teacher is such freaking tough stuff! Making lesson plans, homework, test, AND doing it all in spanish. Blah... (I love spanish, but it's just not my first language. I learned english first because my dad doesn't speak it, so my mom mostly spoke english.) Oh, well... free practice before I have to start studying it again in college.
Well speaking of college. While I'm working, I am also trying to juggle in scheduling my college courses. I'm taking a freshman seminar type class (Creating Monsters (just a study on how society has come to create and dictate who and what is the definition of a monster)), Psychology 100 (I figure my college won't take the credit I had before because I didn't have a laboratory section to the course) and finally I'm taking Culture of the Spanish Speaking World (Specifically only the study of Mexico and Central America).
The times seem fairly reasonable, so let's see how I really survive once I'm in the middle of it :S
oh... Now about the food situation here down in Mexico. It's good, but I guess that it mean's it's a band situation? I've lost my grasp on the normality of eating.
To put it simply... after having not lost weigh in about 3 months... the weight is FALLING off me here. I can look in the mirror and I'm pretty sure I see a flatter stomach (My mind wants to tell me I'm still huge and that I'll never lose, but my clothes are disagreeing.) It's only been 2 weeks, but my shorts are very much loser (good thing I brought some belts, I suppose).
Now here's why the situation is good and bad. Bad because I'm getting my restricting tendencies REALLY intensely. (Even with a 8 week purge free streak I am REALLY getting those thoughts.) I tell myself things like:
- "Oh, well I might as not eat cause there aren't many vegetarian options."
- "It just seems like too much work to throw something together to eat".
- "Might as well save my money for college".
THOSE THINGS SUCK! If it were my sister in my situation I would tell her to really get some professional help.
But on the other hand, I'm so screwed in the head that I'm thinking of things like "Yes! The weight is finally dropping again".
If this is any indication of how I will be in college... I don't know weather to laugh or cry...
Well, I'll let yall go and live your merry life's.
Until next time,
- Vizzy
About Me
- InvisibleDisorderedOne
- I created this blog long ago when I was ffeling my most alone and down. Not saying my life is perfect now; however, I am in a much better mental space with myself and the world around me. I hop on here every now and then to in the hopes that, like me, this can give you solace and hope that things CAN GET BETTER. I'll always try to comment back if you ever need a voice to talk to.
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2 comments:
Total immersion is one of the best ways to learn a language :3 OMG MEXICO!!! Send me a postcard????? PLEASE????? If you can let me know and I'll PM you my postal addy on YouTube :)
Don't listen to the spazzy side of your brain, listen tot he SOLID FACT of the clothes being too big now. Mine are all too small. I'm starting to work out that while my man can sacrifice nutrition for quantity and not gain anything, I can't. I've been slowly gaining all year, and I just noticed now! D:
Uni taught me to never say no to free food *Facepalm* my budget is so fucking tight that I just hoard shit when i can. Lol, doesn't matter if I'm not going to eat it, I still panic if there's nothing int he cupboards! (Logical? Hardly)
Have fun and look after yourself, ok? LOVEYOU!!!! <3
That would be equally awesome, if not more so. A mexican postcard with american stamps? Wicked!
In my experience the Fresher Five (We run in kgs here) comes from a combo if the following factors:
1) Drinking pints of high-cal alcoholic beverages 4-6 nights a week
2) Inactivity, taking up a more sedentary lifestyle
3) Wasting lots of money on takeaways because you never learned how to cook
4) Eating lots of junk food because mummy isn't watching over your diet and making you eat veges any more
5) "Study Food" - Buying chips, bikkies and candy as well as high-sugar energy drinks specifically to consume while studying for exams/writing the assignment you've left to the last minute.
6) Severely disrupted sleeping patterns making you consume more calories out of sheer exhaustion and drinking lots of coffees (NOT black!) or energy drinks to stay awake. Even if they drink diet energy drinks the fake sugars in them make them crave MORE real sugar than they would have gotten from a standard one in the first place. . .
Lol, you can avoid the fresher 5 piece of piss if you are 'boring' and eat/sleep/exercise normally, do things on time, don't binge drink and nibble on apples/carrot sticks while you study! Just coz everyone's going to the pub/having drinks 5 nights a week doesn't mean you have to go along every time. Work smart, not hard!
Love you <3
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