Long time no blog huh... sorry (If you actually care. It not... whatever.)
Soooooo. Time has been more of it's hating self. I'm sliding deeper and deeper in to a depression of self loathing and apathy.
If I died tomorrow it wouldn't matter. Nothing fucking matters or has value if it has to do with me.
Hell even colleges don't want me enough. It's evident that they haven't giving me enough scholarship. THERE IS NO WAY IN HELL I CAN AFFORD TO PAY FOR IT. I'm poor, my family is poor.
I don't know what to do....
The only thing I seem to do on a regular basis is cut, and please others....
Fuck it all.