Ugh. So ever since I've been back it seems like my fullness meter is broken. I haven't been able to restrict the way I was in Mexico. PLUS I don't walk as much because I've been having to catch up on all my school work. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!
I know the scale says I've put on weight which is really triggering me. Yeasterday I was barely able to escape the need to purge, but after 12 weeks of being free.... I purged as soon as soon as my family left. I just couldn't handle it.
I'm so sorry that I have let you all down.
I need you all more than ever, I don't want to go back into bulimia.
I need to go and to some exercise videos and try to get rid of this weigh before wednesday.
this is the goal I need to keep in mind.