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Sunday, August 15, 2010

Oh Habits Die Hard!

Oh boy, I wish the habits would just crash, burn and DIE!

Ugh. So ever since I've been back it seems like my fullness meter is broken. I haven't been able to restrict the way I was in Mexico. PLUS I don't walk as much because I've been having to catch up on all my school work. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!

I know the scale says I've put on weight which is really triggering me. Yeasterday I was barely able to escape the need to purge, but after 12 weeks of being free.... I purged as soon as soon as my family left. I just couldn't handle it.

I'm so sorry that I have let you all down.
I need you all more than ever, I don't want to go back into bulimia.

I need to go and to some exercise videos and try to get rid of this weigh before wednesday.


this is the goal I need to keep in mind.

1 comment:

Peridot (G+P) said...

If you have boring textbooks to read (Like me) walk on the spot to keep yourself awake. Sometime it's the only way! (Although I haven't found ANYTHING that can combat Descartes!)

Good luck with the study!