Your request is my command...

Well sometimes. Basically if they are simple enough XD

Upon special request I will put up a video of me playing my uke.

(This is my only video so far because it was the only one I recorded during break. I'm a bit of a perfectionist and it is not that easy to get a perfect recording) I even added background vocals at one part, I had to edit it... it was a lot of work basically XD

As I say in the video, I was bored and needed something to do during break so I made this for my friend and the guy she has a crush on.

I LOVE this song! It is Parachute by Ingrid Michaelson.
Enjoy.

-Vizzy

Oh my!

WOW! I have been awarded...

This is exciting. Thank you Peri for being such a wonderful person in my life.

Okay. On to 7 things I like and 5 people I shall share this award with.
    1) I am awesome in bed. I can sleep for hours! (Yea... I know where some of your minds went XD)

    2) I can not go long spaces of time without singing/playing ukulele/guitar... basically any form of musical expression.

    3) Sometimes I procrastinate buy buying things for great deals online. I have been staying warm because of my awesome buys (but now that I have my warm necessities... i don't think I can do this for the rest of my college career :( )

    4) Sometimes I love watching people do the craziest shit. (This works exceptionally well at parties.) It's kinda funny AND I actually remember all the stupid stuff they did, while they don't.

    5) I love my tattoo and am DYING to get a new one! Spring break, come faster.

    6) I'm glad to be really bonding with two of the girls in my dorm. We are all wonderfully antisocial most of the time so it works out :)

    7) I really like the feeling after a workout. That feeling on invincibility, weird I know, but this is me. :)

Now, I share this with:
PME
Sweet pea
Amber
Holly
and my last person is any one that feels like procrastinating :)


-Vizzy

A-Z

As a procrastination tactic on this miserable saturday night. (It's miserable because I NEVER get sick, yet I have been getting a sore throat and a runny nose. Basically the other girls in my dorm are trying to convince me that I am sick, but this is so rare for me that I can't recognize it.)

Peri did this, so now I shall to!


Here are the things about me... A through Z.




A. Age: 19... Nothing particularly special about this age.
B. Bed size: Full size at home; twin size at college
C. Chore you hate: Cleaning room.
D. Dogs: We have one family dog, Kobe.
E. Essential start to your day: Bitching about why the morning has arrived
F. Favourite color: Purple
G. Gold or silver: I like silver, but I can pull off wearing gold.
H. Height: 5'6"... kinda wish I was at least 2 inches taller :/ Oh well, I can wear taller heels :)
I. Instrument you play: Acoustic guitar and Ukelele
J. Job title: Teacher durning the summer & student that calls for donations for my university
K. Kids: None yet... maybe I'll adopt some in the future
L. Live: Houston, Texas (only reason I put it is because Houston is so big so y'all can't stalk me, unless I you are one of my good friends)
M. Mother's name: Norma
N. Nicknames: Mimi (only family calls me this)
O. Overnight hospital stays: I guess just when I was born
P. Pet peeves: People that think their perspective is the only way to think
Q. Quote from a movie: "You know what? Fuck beauty contests. Life is one fucking beauty contest after another. School, then college, then work... Fuck that. And fuck the Air Force Academy. If I want to fly, I'll find a way to fly. You do what you love, and fuck the rest." - Little Miss Sunshine
R. Right or left: Right handed
S. Siblings: One younger sister
T. Typical day: Wake-up, make protein shake, get dressed, get to class, lunch, surf internet, dinner, homework, workout, get ready for bed, sleep
U. Underwear: Yes?
V. Vegetable you hate: I like all vegetables seeing as I'm a vegetarian.
W. What makes you run late: Not checking the time before class, so by the time I notice, I'm running out the door
X. X-Rays: just the normal dentist ones
Y. Yummy food that you make: I make awesome vegetarian enchiladas for my family.
Z. Zoo animal: OWLS!

New Year... New rant

I'm not too big on the whole New Year's Resolution thing

but I have to admit that I did make goals for last year.

In 2011 I:

- I successfully began to read up on and just general research on veganism. (I even had bouts of time when  was eating vegan)

- Started the 100 theme challenge (didn’t finish, but I was doing that for more fun just so I could keep writing my poetry)

- Began running like crazy. (I was that one crazy college kid that was always in the gym even though I’m not in a sport)

Yup… So I just general things that seem like fun and would be awesome to do. I don’t make resolutions to “completely change myself”. Fuck that. If people really want to change their outlook, they can do so any day, any time, any where. No need to wait for January 1st or monday ect. If you want it, do it.

Period.

This is what I put on Tumblr. It just irks me sometimes that some people are making all these resolution, and to the people with real intention behind it, more power to them; however, the ones that just feel that "It's a new year, so it's gonna be different now". No. It's not like the universe is just going to suddenly make everything easy just because it is now 2012.

This is why I am a proponent for people that start in the middle of the year or week or day. It doesn't matter when you start, just that you do. You are the same person you were yesterday... the only difference is what you do.

Enough of my rant. Sorry if this feels like a downer, but I'm a realist and I want people to do things because they want real change, not just cause it's a new year and everyone is saying "I want to lose weight"

happy new year!

-Vizzy

TigerText

So... I'm really bored right now. I found out about TigerText so.... Yea. I still don't have a data plan on my cell phone, but I put the app on iPad, so... If anyone else know about it... Text me! I'm kinda dying of boredom.

We all have our... quirks.

I've been a shit blogger as of recent and I apologize deeply for that. I have really utilized this winter break at home only for sleeping, reading, running, and various other little things. Do know though that I do keep updated with all of yalls blogs, so that makes up some I suppose :)

Over all I have been feeling kinda down, and that was even before my great aunt died two days ago. I guess now if anyone notices, I could just blame it on that. I wasn't really close to her because I rarely ever saw her, but it's always sad to lose someone in the family.

Everyone has his or her own way of dealing with it. Here are two polar opposite examples: My mother gets pissed off. She will just get pissed off and make you feel at fault (or maybe I'm just projecting that). I hate it. I can't deal with intense emotions, wether they are mine or not. So when my mother is yelling it makes me feel like I'm 10 again and I must obviously be at fault.

I on the other hand turn in on myself. I lock myself in my room. Read, but the only interaction I really have with the world is through the internet. Pathetic, but I can't stand to just be in the living room with my mother there. Needless to say, we don't have a very strong mother daughter relationship....

Well to end this on a lighter note, I finished the novel Triangles by Ellen Hopkins today.
Oh my gosh this is one amazing piece of literature! If you have not read any of her books and you can handle more mature subject matter I highly recommend Mrs. Hopkins first ever adult novel. I don't have any of the issues that are in this book, yet she opened my eyes to some things that most writers theses days are to afraid to shine a light on.

 Until next time,
-Vizzy

Broken

I've been home for about  5 days... and now I've binged and purged.

Fuck gaining weight at college. NO! I lost weight in college, but here I am back home. Fucking weak as I've ever been just binging and purging. My family is just in the living room oblivious to what is hiding in the closet...

I'm a pathetic human being.
I disgust myself.
I hate myself.

 "I am the broken

I am the bruised

I am the poor ones

I have been used"

Moving on and unexpected epiphinanies

I felt that my moment of struggle and stupidity might help someone right now and if it does, than I know that my life is not lived in vain.

So last night after studying a bit for my spanish final (first college final EVER) I decided to watch a movie with some other girls in my suite. We watched some movie that I can't remember the name to, but if you know of "Turnip Head" that is the movie I'm talking about. (Comment to tell me what the name is if you know it) Well during that time I kinda of, sort of, binged.

Ok. So I'm positive it was a binge, and I even knew it when it was happening. Fuck I was so pissed off at myself and I'm still a little irked, but I realized just like I tell others, it has passed.

*30 minutes later*

OMG! I feel so add but I have just been doing some research on a tattoo epiphany that has just hit me. It sprung up from the fact that I binged.

Yes it has passed and that's what I was telling myself when I was on the elliptical for and hour. (I would have been on the elliptical regardless if I binged or not yesterday). It's gone. All I have is today to work to my goal.

I just wanted to let you all know that what ever crap is going on in your life "This too shall pass". You are what you repeatedly do so don't let on or ever a few crappy days to undo all your hard work.

Stand tall.

- Vizzy


p.s. that tattoo epiphany I had is that I want to get "This too shall pass" on my inner foot. I am so excited, but it's turning to winter, so I'm not sure when I can get it done...

Library lockdown

It takes locking myself in the library in order for me to finish a paper. Now I know. I did this last night because as my first trimester in college is winding down the laws of disproportional work load has had an effect once again. All the work seems to have ended up in the last part of the term rather than the middle when I basically had nothing to do but read for class.

Oh well. I just have 3 papers (2 of which are in spanish), and 2 test separating me and my home in Texas. Can't wait to be back in my familiar coolish Texas winters rather than this colder Illinois climate. It's really not that bad, but I'll just have to REALLY  get used to it fast when I get back after break. That's when snow will be covering everything and I'll have to force myself to go out into the snow to go to classes next term :/ (It is possible that that may be the first term where I may or may not skip classes... don't judge me. I haven't had to deal with snow in 15 years.)

Anywho, I'm gonna try to work on these spanish essays then go to my dorm and watch Little Miss Sunshine because it is my favorite movie and will motivate me to finish this term strong.


P.s. went to the gym and feel amazing (I absolutely love regularly going to the gym because I get so many of my aggressions and frustrations out that way which means I've hardly self injured this term Yay! And I can actually start to see the muscle definition in my arms after 10 weeks of pretty consistent strength training along with my cardio.)

Until later,
- Vizzy

Hello there,

Random news, just got some snow boots. I think that means that my feet won't die when it starts snowing here at college. I'll be miserable still... but have warm feet.

You win some and you lose some :/

Well on an exciting note I only have 15 days until I fly home! Only thing stopping me is:

- 1 paper for my mandatory freshman class

- 1 paper, 2 projects for spanish and 1 exam for spanish

- 1 lab, 1 paper, and 1 exam for psychology

SO MUCH! I'll just try to keep the end in mind...

How have all of you been doing? Only a couple have been updating your blogs so TELL ME! "I wanna know! Can you show me?" (can you guess the song reference?)

Any who... I should get some work done.

Until next time,

-Vizzy